[I didn't actually sit down at my computer to write anything this morning. I had a text message earlier from one of my dear sisters, many miles away, saying that she had sent an email, so that's really all I was looking for. But in addition to her email and a pic of her adorable and most recent grand baby, I found an email from World Vision. . .]
I used to feel overwhelmed. A lot. Overwhelmed by life, and how quickly it was racing along and how disconnected I felt from it. Overwhelmed by expectations (mostly my own) of who I should be, what I should be doing, how I should be doing it . . .
. . . and then, overwhelmed by how far away I was from meeting any of those overwhelming expectations.
No, honestly. This isn't just a bit of melodrama here. I was a mess. I had everything I needed, most of the things I wanted. Nevertheless, waking on those mornings, I wanted nothing more than to crawl under my bed and die.
So there you have it. The bad and the ugly.
But I don't feel that same overwhelmed-ness anymore.
Sometimes the longest way 'round is the shortest way home. -C.S. Lewis
I've learned to be grateful for every disappointing twist and turn of the last decade, realizing, in retrospect, that a shortcut, while easier, could never have taken me home. And I love home!
Sometimes I still do feel overwhelmed; but not overwhelmed by life, but rather overwhelmed by God.
Overwhelmed by his grace, his mercy, his faithfulness, his steadfast love. Overwhelmed that he would take notice of my seemingly insignificant issues while one-third of the worlds population may not even have a roof over their heads or a place to call home. Overwhelmed with how he takes the little bit that each of us can do, in love, and uses it to change the world, one life at a time. To bring us home.
This link, Fred Penner and World Vision, is what I found in my inbox this morning. I'm hoping that you will watch it and be overwhelmed.